137. Thoughts
Rocco felt something was off with Rockford and Dee. Insecurities were creeping back to the back of his mind. They have been together for the last two months, everything was great until a couple of days ago. Precisely since the last time Dee and Rockford had their one-on-one time. He thought he had great sex with Rockford before that. He felt good about himself and he thought Rockford did too.
“Honey, something is bothering you. Spill.” Rocco’s mom scolded him when he was accompanying his mom shopping. It was their mom and son’s bonding time. They have been doing so since he was a kid since his dad was always busy with work. Well… aside from that, she didn’t need another excuse. He was just there because he wanted to. He loves his mom and he loves spending time with her.
“How can you always tell?”
“Please I have you in me for nine months, of course I can tell.” His mom took his free hand and dragged him to the nearest coffee shop. His other hand was full of shopping bags, but he managed not to drop them.
“Mom, I’m practically lifting weights here, you might want to take it slow. I’m not athletic enough for this.” Rocco rolled his eyes and his mom laughed elegantly as she sat down in the empty chair while tapping on the table telling her son to take a seat. Her other hand waves the waiter near them to take their order.
“Mom,”
“Sssh, baby, let me order for us.” She rested her hand on his, practically silencing him while she ordered for both of them. It didn’t matter that Rocco wanted an espresso, she still ordered one of those fancy frappes with caramel and chocolate that he loathes on a coffee. Rocco knew he was going to buy another espresso once his mom was done ordering one for them.
“Now, spill.” She said when the waiter was done taking their drink and apparently, he was going to eat some pastries with their creamy iced coffees.
“It’s probably nothing, but I feel like something is off with Dee and Rockford. I don’t know. Maybe…” Rocco’s shoulder slumped when he felt his desperation creeping up to the surface.
“Stop this nonsense right now. Dee adores you. She loves you and I can tell from the couple of times that Rockford came for dinner that he cares about both of you. I even think that he’s the missing piece in you and Dee’s relationship.”
“Well, since last week I used to think the same. But something changed after they had their one-on-one night.”
“Um… so, maybe it’s between Dee and Rockford thing, have you tried talking to Dee?”
“I did, she kept on saying that nothing was wrong. That’s why I think maybe she’s bored of me, maybe she decides she likes Rockford better.”
“Stop it, Rocco. I don’t think that’s true. Have you tried talking to Rockford?”
The conversation paused when the waiter came back with their order. Rocco tried not to flinch from the sweet drink, though yes, he never thinks anything but espresso as coffee and his mom always gets the pleasure of ordering him the whitest and creamiest coffee whenever she is out with him.
“Mom, we’re still new. Though I’ve known him for years maybe he thinks three is a crowd? Maybe I’m not what he was looking for. Maybe Dee is more than enough for him.” Rocco continued his explanation, it was kind of stupid when he heard himself saying it. But there’s no better reason that he could think of.
“Son, don’t. You’re the most perfect person I know and I would never think you’re not good enough for anyone.”
Rocco resisted the urge to roll his eyes. Of course, his parents would think that he was perfect. He’s their only child and they love him to death, the same way he loves his parents.
“Ugh… don’t give me that look. I’m still your mother, young man, and I know my son. If they think you’re not good enough for them, then that’s their loss. But still, I think you need to talk to them.” His mom sent him an assuring smile before she took a sip of her coffee.
“You know I’m not perfect, Mom, not after the incident.” Rocco decided to stuff his mouth with the pastry, clearly wanting just a bit of time for himself.
“Oh honey, Dee knows about it and she didn’t back down from loving you for years. I’m sure this is about something else. Just promise me you will talk to them.”
“Okay Mom,” Rocco eventually said in defeat. He knew his mom meant well, she did love him, and she wanted what was best for him. Even though those who his mom thinks highly of might not want him.
Their coffee time lasted for another hour, and Rocco dropped his mother at his childhood home before he went back to their apartment. He thought about what his mom said and he knew that he had to go through with it or he had to answer to his mom. And Rocco really didn’t want to disappoint her when he told her the truth.
The moment Rocco reached the apartment, Dee was there and so was Rockford. They both looked tense and that was when he decided to get it over with. Though Rocco dreaded what might come next, he really needs to suck it up and be done with it.
“Okay, I need both of you to give it to me. Talk to me.” When Rockford hesitated and Dee looked like she was ready to bolt, Rocco was preparing himself for the inevitable. “Dee, are you breaking up with me?”
“W-what? Why would you think that? Rocco, no… I love you.”
Rocco flinched when she put her hand on his arm, caressing him gently before she pecked his lips.
“So what is going on?” Rocco asked again.
Rockford finally cleared his throat, putting his hand on his waist, and pulling him close for a kiss. “Remember when I told you that being involved with me is a mistake?”This is the property of Nô-velDrama.Org.
“But it’s not, I care about you,” Rocco interjected. Being raised by his sweet loving parents, Rocco knows that he always prefers honesty above all. And he was honest when he told Rockford that he cared about the man.
“Thank you, Rocco, I care about you too. And I know it’s even more than that for me.”
Rocco didn’t want to think, he didn’t want to hope because he too was feeling more than like for Rockford. He was falling for the man and that was also why he thought their tense behavior was messing with his mind.
“Rocco, what I’m trying to say is that Dee is in danger. We think that someone is following her and it’s still not clear who that someone is. It could be someone from my past and I don’t want to take chances. Look, Dee told me about what happened to you and I decided to keep this from you. But now, I think you’re more…”
Rocco stopped listening to his words, instead, he looked at Dee and swiftly pulled her into his arms. He couldn’t imagine someone was tailing her, Rocco didn’t want anything bad to happen to the love of his life. Also not to Rockford.
“You will take days off until we figure this out. I’m not risking anyone taking you away from me.”
“Rocco, I can’t…”
“Don’t Dee, if you love me don’t make me risk the chance of losing you. I’ve been thinking of losing both of you for these few days and I hated it.”
Dee was quiet but Rocco didn’t care, he was not losing her over some deranged person or someone from Rockford’s past. He needed her safe. He needed both of them safe.