Chapter 274 Reiner – Don’t Underestimate My Feelings
Note: This story is an alternative ending to the main story branching out from the chapter called ‘Because It Hurts’. It will follow Reiner’s route of the story to Reiner’s ending. Events in this story happens in a parallel universe and does not overlap with that of the main story (Edward’s route).
**In the Greenhouse**Content © copyrighted by NôvelDrama.Org.
Reiner’s deep thrusts hitting hard against the sensitive spot deep inside of my cave, sending me over the edge as my orgasm claimed me. I clenched my pussy walls hard around his shaft to suck him in deeper as I squirted my juices out as I came.
I loss all strength in my body and my mind as well as a result of my intense climax. It was the sensation of something hot spurting deep inside of me that brought me back to my senses. I realized that Reiner was panting my name while he ejaculated loads of his hot seed deep into my body as he climaxed.
I closed my eyes exhausted from our passionate tryst. I felt Reiner lift my limp body up in his arms once more and I rested my head against his warm chest with my eyes still closed. That was when I remembered that I should give him the answer he had so badly wanted.
“…because it hurts. When you want something that you can’t have…even though… it’s so close…” I murmured softly against his chest as if speaking to myself. This was my response to what he wanted so badly to know.
Reiner was silent and although I wanted to know how he felt, I knew that glancing up into his emotionless face would probably not provide me with any clues. Instead, I cast my eyes downwards and watched my own fingers that were curled up on Reiner’s chest.
It was then that I realized that the rain had subsided. The rain continued to beat softly against the greenhouse, but the rainstorm was gone now. I listened to the soft sound of the rain and the strong beating of Reiner’s heart. After a while, it was clear that Reiner wasn’t going to say anything.
However, I had something that I wanted…and needed to say…
Perhaps, this was the only chance that I had left.
I looked up and slowly, with the tips of my fingers, I touched the side of his face. Just like magic, Reiner looked down at me and our eyes locked.
“Reiner, I love you…” I said softly but clearly as I looked deeply into his wonderfully blue eyes.
If it was joy or happiness that I wanted to see as Reiner’s reaction, I would have been completely crushed with disappointment. It was extremely difficult to analyze and identify the various emotions that flickered in his eyes when he heard my confession of love.
Shock, disappointment, regret, and rejection. Those were the emotions that I could sense from him. Not exactly the most heart-warming reactions one would expect from an honest love confession.
“No, you don’t, Natalia. You’re just confused because we’ve been spending a lot of time together. It will pass,” Reiner said solemnly as he lifted me off his lap and onto the bench next to him.
“Why do you always say things like that?” I asked, my mood darkening fast.
“…because it’s true,” Reiner replied emotionlessly.
“What?” I whispered, surprised at how hurt and angry I was starting to feel.
“You’re still young and young people are prone to make mistakes,” Reiner said before smiling sadly at me.
“My feelings are not a mistake!” I cried out loudly in denial.
These are my true feelings and I know myself best. How can my feelings possibly be a mistake?
I turned to face him as I glared at him without the willingness to backdown. Reiner closed his eyes and sighed as if he was sick and tired of dealing with me.
“You say that you love me but I’m sure that you don’t. This isn’t true love, Natalia. When I’m no longer here, you will forget all about me soon enough,” Reiner said, calmly.
It was his calm and how much it contrasted with the heat and passion burning in my heart that made me feel angrier at him.
“…I will never forget you…” I said with certainty. However, I must have came across as one very stubborn girl to Reiner.
“How can you possibly love me when you don’t even know anything about me?” Reiner said with a sigh.
“Stop putting it like it’s my fault. How can I know anything about you when you just keep everything hidden away?” I replied heatedly.
“Time will pass, and people will change. You’ll grow up some more, and you’ll meet someone who will make you truly happy…” Reiner said gently.
I knew he wished me well and wanted what he thought was best for me. However, that wasn’t what I wanted, and it wasn’t what I believed was best for me either. I don’t want to meet anyone else…
“…and that person, isn’t you? Why can’t that person be you?” I asked as I felt tears sting my eyes.
Was there really no chance of a future for us to be together?
“You have a bright future ahead of you, Natalia…and your future isn’t with me,” Reiner stated matter-of-factly. It was like he believed that our destiny and our futures have already been set in stone.
“I’m just an inconvenience, aren’t I?” I said so softly that I wasn’t sure if he had heard me.
“What?” Reiner said with apparent confusion as he narrowed his eyes at me.
“Me…and my needless feelings, they’re all just a burden and an inconvenience for you…aren’t they?” I asked before I looked up into his face.
Apparently, Reiner was stunned at my question. I was sure that he had an answer but had decided against voicing it. It was Reiner who broke our eye contact first as he turned to look the other way, away from me.
When I confessed to him, I already knew very well that he didn’t feel the same way. Reiner didn’t love me the way that I love him. Honestly, I didn’t hope for him to reciprocate my feelings…however…
“It’s one thing if you don’t love me…but it’s another thing all together for you to underestimate my feelings…” I said softly but clearly.
I meant it as I said it. I never expected that he would belittle my feelings like this. Reiner did not say anything as I got up from the bench and picked up my dress from the floor. I felt his eyes on me as he followed my movements. Swiftly, I put the dress back on, not bothering to adjust it.
Without turning back to face him, I walked towards the door. Then, I stopped in front of the door to the glasshouse. The rain outside had pretty much stopped. Although it was still dark, I was certain that I could somehow make my way back to the mansion.
“The rain has stopped…I’m heading back,” I said, my eyes on the glass and Reiner’s reflection in it. He hasn’t moved from where he was seated.
I pushed the door open firmly and felt the harsh wind on my face as I stepped out into the open. Perhaps, I wouldn’t see Reiner again, but I had said everything that I wanted to say. I told him how I felt and that was just that.
It was still dark, and I doubt anyone else would be out walking in the garden in this rain. Well, if anyone saw me in this messed up state…who cares?
–To be continued…