I’m Just His Wife

I was swallowed. The bad taste! I have never tasted such strong wine in all my life.

“Don’t drink as much. All right, when you drink more I’ll drink too. It’s hard to take care of me when I’m drunk.” I grinned as he shook and his two shoulders dropped.

“Why were you still awake?” he asked without looking at me.

I shrugged. “I can’t sleep. E you, why aren’t you sleeping and you’re still drinking alcohol? was it because of what happened earlier? were you still affected by Lara? Does it hurt?” I asked a series of questions.

He turned to me. “Which of your many questions should I answer?”

Napairap ako. So much for the word ‘too much”. “Or he’s fine. Why were you getting drunk?”

“I just want to forget what happened before even for a moment. And also, I want to forget those harsh words and acts that I did to you in the past. It’s like I’m slowly being killed by pain when I remember what I did to you that’s why I just go through the motions of drinking. ” after he said that he leaned back on the couch and turned a blind eye.

I fell silent. was he thinking about those?

I sighed and took the glass I drank earlier and poured the wine into it. I could see out of the corner of my eye that Ivan was awake and watching what I was doing. I immediately gulped down the wine and then I put the glass back on the center table. Damn, I don’t really like the taste of that wine but it feels like I want to drink it too!

“I don’t drink so don’t drink.” said Ivan and I turned to him.

“You know, you’re a big fool.” I can’t help but say that.

He sighed and frowned. “What the? were you drunk yet?” he asked but I didn’t pay attention to that yet.

“I loved you so much then and you hurt me. It’s easy to say but hard to feel. But I’ve learned to forget and forgive, Ivan. And I hope you too …” I began and sighed afterwards. I saw the sadness in his expression.

“You said that before, didn’t you? It’s the past. It’s the past so please, don’t talk about it anymore. Because when you insist on thinking about the past, the future will only be chaotic. The past was useless because we were in the future. Whatever we do we can’t go back in time and we have no hope to fix the messes of the past. There’s no sense in drinking if you’re only thinking about the past. Remember, Ivan. You need to rest now. all that happened to you, to us. So don’t ever waste your time on useless things again because now was more important. You have to learn to forget all that happened then because you can’t do anything good. ” my long litany.

I saw him avert his gaze and his bow. was that all he will react to as much as I say?

I just closed my eyes firmly and leaned my head on the couch. Why did I love and marry a very secretive man? I have a hard time reading his gestures and thoughts.

“It’s hard for you to forget because I’m to blame for everything.” he said suddenly after a few minutes of silence.

I opened my eyes and looked at him who was now looking at me as well.

“was that your only problem? That you’re to blame for everything so you’re sulking there?” I raised my one eyebrow.

He nodded. “Yes. It was all my fault. And now remorse was slowly eating away at my system.”

I was frustrated. “Stupid. The shallowness of your reason.” I poured back into the glass of wine and drank it straight away. He’s crazy!

“What’s so shallow there?” he laughed heartily and translated into the same glass I used. He also drank alcohol.

“You know, everything that happened to us was ordained by God. If it hadn’t happened to us we might not have learned the two of us so don’t blame yourself. And God instead of blaming you, thank you “Because if we weren’t really for each other, we wouldn’t have met again.” I don’t know where I get what I”m saying. Am I drunk? I also do not know.

A smirk flashed on his lips. “So, we’re destined for each other? was that what you’re referring to?”

I kicked him. “Shit! I don’t even know what you’re saying! I need to make sure first.”

“I love you.” he took a look at me.

I gasped and slapped his arm again. “Gagi. You can’t just catch me with your words. Do I know you’re just giving me a good time?” I bit my lip because of what I was saying. I think I’m drunk!

I was devastated when Ivan stared at my lips. There were so many who have been beaten up!

“Your lips were still really beautiful …” he said while staring at my lips.

“Change the topic, you’re a man. We’re talking about something else. You’re crazy.” spontaneously my hand rose and pinched his nose. Shit! The cape really.

“Ouch! Damn, you’re drunk, Rigella! I told you not to drink anymore. It’s easy to get drunk on that wine.” he said irritably.

I just laughed. I missed that ill-tempered side of him! I caressed his face. I miss it already. Your very handsome face that I have not touched in a long time.

“You’re so handsome, Ivan. were you really human or were you a robot? You’re so perfect.” damn! I can no longer control my mouth!

His forehead furrowed. “Robot? If I were a robot, Rigella, I wouldn’t have made you pregnant twice.” naiiling na aniya.

I laughed mischievously. “Sample? Get me pregnant and prove you’re not a robot.” I squeezed her cheek and quickly kissed it afterwards.

“Damn it! You’re drunk! Come on and I’ll take you to your room.” he grabbed my arm but I immediately repulsed it.

“Eeeeeh! I don’t want to sleep yet, Ivan. Let’s go here first.” I hugged him and leaned my head on his chest. His scent was so aromatic and sweet! I missed this!

“Shit! You don’t know what you’re doing, Rigella. You’re awakening the beast in me.” he seemed to have difficulty with the promise.

I looked up at him. “Am I turning you on, Ivan?” I laughed at the promise and my index finger caressed his lower lip. Ah, those soft and pinkish lips!

He closed his eyes firmly while I moved away from him a little and leaned on the couch. I feel like I’m drunk. Damn that alcohol.

There were two arms around my waist so I looked there. I bit my lower lip. Those were Ivan’s arms. I don’t know how he sat me with his thigh behind him and I was stuck there. Don’t tell me … Oh, shit. Was he serious about what I said? That was the subconscious me earlier!

He touched my cheek and he presented my face to his. I accidentally saw his luscious lips that’s why I bit my lower lip again. Look what alcohol does in your body, Andrea!ConTEent bel0ngs to Nôv(e)lD/rama(.)Org .

I know I’m drunk but I’m still sane. I saw how his eyes moved its way to my lips. He cursed wildly and closed his eyes.

And when he suddenly opened his eyes, I saw different emotions on it. Passion, longing, and an exquisite lust was flashed in his eyes.

“I love you very very much more than anything in this world, Rigella Andrea Crisostomo-De Leon. I was almost crazy when you disappeared and maybe when you disappear from me now I will be completely crazy. So now I will make sure not to you can still escape from me … “he said and lowered down his head to move closer to my face. I get even more intoxicated with each look he gives me.

I automatically closed my eyes the moment he kissed my lips fully. I responded to her kisses and held her nape in support. I am facing him was my back and it feels uncomfortable. But my desire to kiss him takes precedence over my feelings.

His hands moved down to my waist and he carried me without breaking our wet torrid kisses. He made me sit again on his thigh in front of him. He leaned on the couch so I was almost on top of him. He angles my head to kiss me more deeply. A moan was escaped from my mouth when his tongue forcefully entered my mouth, tasting and caressing all of its corners.

I encircled my arms around his nape and I felt his hands traveling and caressing the sensitive parts of my body.

“Hmm, I-Ivan …” I uttered when I felt something bulging in between his thighs. Damn it! I know what it was!

“I love you, Rigella …” that’s all he said and kissed me even more deeply as if he was dipping into the depths of my lips and mouth.