Chapter 63
NICK
The doctor continued talking but all I could hear was the sound of my heart thumping in my ears. I felt suffocated as if the walls were closing in on me. The doctor’s room felt too small, and I stood and stumbled to the door getting out. I couldn’t breathe, I needed to get out, not only of the room but out of the hospital. I needed to feel fresh air.
“Mr Jones, are you alright, do you need help?” I could hear the doctor rushing after me and asking questions, but my goal was to get to the elevator. But with each step I took, the further the elevator seemed to be. It was like it was moving further and further away from me the closer I thought I was getting.
My chest tightened and I grabbed my shirt with both hands from the neck then ripped it open. Buttons flew in all directions. I felt like I was moving downward instead of forward, then I hit something, and I heard the doctor screaming.” Code Blue! Code blue!”
What the fuck was a code blue? I needed to get the hell out of there, the walls were slowly closing in and the air around was now thin and suffocating. I moved trying to get up, but the damn doctor pinned me down. “Don’t move Mr Jones, we are going to make you feel better soon.” Before I could say anything. I was lifted and moved.
I was so disoriented that I didn’t know what was happening around me. My eyes grew heavy, and I thought, what the hell? no one would miss me if I were gone anyway. I ruined my wife, how the hell was she going to forgive me after that. the woman lost so much in that prison I put her in.
I closed my eyes and let the darkness consume me. I didn’t know what was happening because when I opened my eyes again, I was in the field, on my right Olivia sat on a blanket with a picnic basket next to her. She wore a beautiful floral dress, yellow. I was admiring her beauty when I heard the most intoxicating laugh.
I turned and a boy about five or six was running around playing with a dog. He fell and the dog went to his face and started licking him all over his face making him giggle some more. “Blue! Leave my son alone.” Olivia yelled, I turned back to the boy and that was when I saw that it was Samuel.
“He will never get to have siblings because of you, are you happy now, Nick? You broke me, are you satisfied?” I shook my head and just as I kneeled to touch her arm she disappeared. I looked around, Samuel and the dog had disappeared as well.
The beautiful flowers started turning black as if they were burned. I could hear a sound of a child crying; I looked around searching for him but I could not find him. Everything around me was black and looked like it was rotting. I got scared and my heart rate increased as I frantically searched for my wife and son.
The crying didn’t stop. “Olivia, Samuel!” I ran towards the sound but when I got close it sounded on the different direction, I ran there but it sounded on the other side. I collapsed on my knees with tears running down my cheeks. I desperately wanted to find my family, but I didn’t know where to look.
“You did this, Nick. Are you happy now?” the voice came, and I frantically shook my head getting up from the ground. “I am sorry! Please, forgive me.” I pleaded as tears continued to roll down my cheeks. “Will sorry change what happened?” the voice came again, and it carried a lot of pain.
Tension gathered on my shoulders and my chest tightened. It didn’t matter how much I apologized; it was not going to change anything. Defeated, I sat on the ground and hung my head low. The beeping sound got me lifting my head and opening my eyes.
Bright light blinded me making me close my eyes then opening them back again. Only to find myself on the hospital bed with a tube on my nose. I removed it and the drip on my arm as well as that thing on my finger. “What do you think you are doing? You just had a heart attack for God’s sake!” mother said coming in.
I searched for my clothes and wore them. “Get back in that bed Nick and don’t make me repeat myself. A heart attack is no joke!” mother yelled, and I glared at her. “Did you know? About Olivia, did you know, mom?” she had a sad look when I asked about Olivia. She knew and she didn’t tell me.
“Why didn’t you tell me it was this bad mother, why did you let me continue hurting her when you know I have already done enough?” it was her turn to glare at me. “I told you to give her time, I told you to stop bothering her and I told you that if you wanted her back then you would have to show her. didn’t I tell you all that?”NôvelD(ram)a.ôrg owns this content.
That was not the same thing! “How about, Nick, on top of your wife giving birth in prison, she also lost her uterus there as well. She will never have children again. That would have been much clearer!” I yelled.
As much as I was yelling at my mother, I knew she was not at fault. She was only trying to respect Olivia’s wishes of keeping that a secret. Now I knew why she fought with father when he gave me that information. They must have brought her here after getting her out of jail. Father got that information from her medical records here.
A lone tear escaped my eye and dropped on the floor as I was putting on my jeans. “Get back into bed Nick, what is done is done. All we can do now is make sure Olivia is taken care of and lives a happy life. No more taking her child from her or hurting her in any other way. She has endured enough in the hands of this family son.”
I shook my head. “A mere heart attack is nothing compared to what I put her through mother. Do you know who did that to her?” mother shook her head no. Then I am going out there to find out who butchered her like that using my name while doing so! And mother, I am going to kill that person with my bare hands.”