Runaway Alpha

Now that I finally gained back my senses after crying like a small kid in front of my father, he lead me to the elders as they wanted to speak to me and tell me something important. Well, maybe this is part of the ceremoy that they are doing once you have a qualification to enter in this exclusive chamber

“One who is ignorant of honing himself will never attain true strength. But those who have the power to seek for the betterment will be recognized and will never be forgotten”

I slightly bow my head as I feel like I have to do it and so the one of the elder come in front and walk in the direction of me

Raising his hand, I feel like he is chanting some weird things while his hand are racing on top of my head. I just let it be since I do not have any rights to question what they are doing since the whole authority in this village lies to them.

I am also aware that my father won’t let them do anything bad to me especially when it is in his presence. Surely he do hold great sense of justice.

I am not sure what he is saying because even if I have known the ancient language… that isn’t a phrase that I have heard of. That is also different compared to our original way of speaking… now I wonder what kind of word that is.

Suddenly I feel like a heat surge inside my feet. The part on where the curse like thing had appeared. It was my right leg.

My standing suddenly stumbled as I feel a sudden ache on that part of my body. I tried keeping my balance and composure so that I won’t fall but as the seconds goes by, it feels like something is trying to break free from my leg. Weird things started entering . It is as if… Millions of needles are are seeking inside my limb as if there are thousands more on their way.

I didn’t speak and try to remain my footing as I feel like this is some sort of test so that I can be truly acknowledged as someone who is befitting with this privilege

Did my father also experience such thing? Although… why do this hurt so bad. If it is part of of their exam to test me, why does it just includes my right leg why doesn’t it include my whole body who is completely fine?

Trying my best ability to comprehend it, I can’t help but feel that there are sweat coming down from my forehead

I hear how my father mumbled words as if hes questioning something but I can’t fully understand it since I was busy in gathering my strength to remain standing.

Even the moment when the snake like creature sir wrap his tail all around my leg it doesn’t feel this bad

I suddenly close my eyes as I can help but shake from my standing because the pain coming from my leg is truly untoleratable.

Do they really think that I can experience this much even if it is my father, he never treated me this much. His teachings may hurt so bad but if compared to this, I would rather experience that million of times that have this feeling even for a second.

Now I can’t help but feel like I am some kid who have no power at all. This is the same feeling I have felt when I compete with that snake but now that I am experiencing these things again I feel like I am such a vulnerable person who would break whenever a big problem occurs

This very same feeling… I hated too much extent

I do want to stay like this forever. I want to get stronger so that they won’t look down at me

I want to be stronger so that I can’t experience such things. I want to prove them that I am strong so that it is not I who will be tortured by the power of those who are stronger than me.

And now I started to feel suffocated. This is as if all of the oxygen in my body are beginning to get out of my body. My breathing started to be unjust. It does makes sense though. After having this sense in my body, I somehow admire myself for lasting this long. But then, any more of it would truly ruin me.

I look at my father but I can’t see his very face as my sigh started to get all so blurry. I can also feel how my body seems like I am acting in the state that is nothing for from being drunk. I tried to give all of the strength that is left in me to remained standing but then no words can explain how hard it is to remain standing with me two feet

I suddenly head a loud voice shouting so madly. It is so loud and clear that I easily recognized that it is the voice of my father who is shouting at the elders asking what is happening with me

Dad, I too don’t know what is really happening to me. I feel… so helpless. Did you really experience this thing before? Or is it just because I am to young and inexperienced to have the ability in overcoming this?

Look in front of me and saw the blurry version of a figure who’s hands are pointing at me as if hes blessing me or something like that but then I can’t be sure since my vision is really blurry and and I think it is about to fade.

The only thing I know is that he seems to get taller and taller and taller…. as if I am turning smaller like ants.

Thud

And before I can say that I’m falling on the ground. My feet suddenly feel numb.

A million of stars shining in the sky

As a millions of wind strings flying so high

A million of raindrops forming a big and massive sea

And a million of life being taken that only I can see

There is a million of soldiers fighting for their life

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A million of helping voice echoing up within

And a million wishes that I can never grant as in

A million of fragments scattered all over

I am capable yet feel like I have no power

You can save them but you don’t

You can act and help but no it’s what you always told

I want to save them but I can’t

I want to act and help but no is what you’ve always said

I just wanted to be free but I feel like I can’t be

I am suffering day-by-day… oh why can’t you see?