Chapter 51
Kenna
"I have a question," Aidan says, causing me to turn and look at him as we sit on opposite sides from one another on the ferris wheel; watching the crowd below, seeing how humans are rather tiny but we have big dreams while some might even have a big ass sass. "Why
did you break up with Noah?" He asks.
"You're direct," I chuckle as he joins me.
"I mean... I know that you broke up with him but you never told me why, I want to know. I'm only seeing this as how I see him; in my own point of view but he seems like a really nice guy, Kenna. He was in love with you. So, why?" His question seems more off than I expected, not that I didn't expect him to never ask questions like this but the reason why I broke up with Noah was never discussed.
Aidan's right, Noah was or still is a nice guy. He has always been there for me, no matter what or when. He understood me most and he took care of me when I needed him. There was no such thing as giving space when it comes to Noah because when we fight, it'll only last for a few minutes... he'd come straight to apologise, even though, sometimes... I was the cause of our fights and arguments.
"I'm like the bad guy here, aren't I?" I smile, playing with my fingers as he continues to look at me; only waiting for my answer.
"I didn't mean it like that," He replies. "I just want to know why,"
"Okay... let me just tell you the whole story, then. You know how we met, right? We clicked right away and things just went with the flow; he couldn't keep himself away from me and I had fallen for his charms. He was like no other regular guy because he understood me like no one does, no offence... all I'm trying to say is that, he was a great boyfriend." I say, earning myself a smile from Aidan. "I was the cause of our breakup. I didn't want to hurt him,"
He furrow his brows, "What do you mean?"
I hesitate for a moment before continuing, "I was always busy. Wait, no... I am always busy. Things were going on fine for the first few months but as soon as I got myself occupied with work, I started to spend less time with him. I'd even forget about our dates...every time he planned them," I reply.Nôvel(D)ra/ma.Org exclusive © material.
Truth be told, I hate it when I'm being reminded of what happened to my past relationship. People would say that we were perfect and that we'd get married one day, have beautiful children but things didn't work out as they said. There was nothing wrong with Noah; he was too perfect. There was just everything wrong with me.
"I even forgot about our first
anniversary. So, when I got home... he was sitting at the dining table, all by himself; the candle had gone off and he was just staring at the empty plates, the empty spot in front of him where I would've been sitting. We didn't talk for days, he shut me out for constantly being busy but it didn't bother me much," frown. "Is it bad to say that I feel sorry for making him wait but as soon as I got to work, everything slipped off my mind?" I add.
"Then, when he came to apologise... "I look up at Aidan's face, seeing him surprised at my story. Just like that, "Why? Why do you look surprised?" I ask.
"It's just that, you forgot about your first anniversary with him but he came to you to apologise? You even busied yourself with work in order for you to forget about the whole thing instead of solving things out," He continues to speak.
"What was I supposed to do? I
forgot that it was even our anniversary, don't have time to remember a lot of things at once. You know how busy I am, Aidan can't simply push my work away to just pay attention to my own relationship." My voice raising with every word I speak, not realising how hard I'm trying to defend myself; even though, deep down, I know it all
began with me.
I should've apologised and I should've fixed things between us but I didn't. He fixed things between us because he didn't want to lose me; his effort was worth more than mine. Noah was everything a woman could ask for, he was patient. More importantly, he was in love.
"Well... it was your fault," He
mutters but loud enough for me to hear. "You should've put more effort to fix things than letting him give in just because he loves you. You were taking advantage," The words Ke said sting but there's no doubt that it's the truth. It was my fault and I shouldn't have felt nothing when I was going through my days but I felt. fine.
"I know," I breathe out; laway.
We keep quiet for a couple of minutes before he starts to speak again, "What if you were given another chance? Not a chance with Noah but a chance with someone new... would you try everything to make sure that you won't repeat the same mistakes?" He asks, leaving me to think of something uncertain.
"I can try." I reply, seeing him nod his head with a small smile plastered on his face as he turns to look away, letting the wind blow onto his hair; carelessly. There are two kinds of situations that I find him being undeniably handsome... when the wind blows, when the sunlight hits his skin and I can't stop myself.
We step down from the ferris wheel as soon as our ride is over, walking side to side towards the crowd. Couples are walking hand in hand as they smile, enjoying themselves; showing how they're somewhat happy to be here.