The Black Alder Series (Books 1-3)

Kayla Pov I woke up feeling so incredible. The twins had me still wrapped up in their arms. I didn’t want to move, but I had to pee so much. I gently moved their arms off of me and went to the bathroom. I took in my appearance. For the first time in a long time, I was so aware of myself. I decided to take a shower. The boys were still sleeping as I got dressed in some gray sweatpants and a black tank top, pulling my wet hair into a ponytail. It was still early anyway, so there was no need to get fully dressed. I kissed them both on the head and walked down to the kitchen. I decided I would make them breakfast.

Luckily, no one was in the kitchen, so I wouldn’t be bothered. I played some music while I made scrambled eggs, bacon, sausage, grits, and French toast. As I cooked, my thoughts drifted to last night, and a blush crept up my cheek. I remembered watching Liam do the same to his mistresses, so I finally understood why they acted the way they did.

“Have a great night, have we?” Elena said Serene, Lauren, Bonnie, and Elle were walking into the kitchen. I blushed even more.

“No need to be embarrassed, love; we’re all grown women here,” Serene said, and I smiled and nodded. I felt comfortable here.

“It didn’t go too far,” I told them, scrambling the eggs. “I want it to, but every time I feel like I want to, Liam comes back into my head, and I become afraid.”

“Sounds like a piece of you is still living in the past,” Bonnie says, and Elle nods.

“Let me give you some advice,” Elena said. “I used to do the same thing, living in the past. Before I was rescued by Roland, my old pack abused me as well. Every day, for years. I was diminished and ridiculed. I was distant with Roland sometimes, due to thinking about what happened to them, and that night they all beat me. My point is that the past is the past for a reason. You’re blaming yourself for what is happening and not giving yourself a chance to forgive yourself. It wasn’t until I fully committed to my bond with Roland that I realized all this time that I had been worried about nothing. Yes, we both had a difficult past. There are some things we can’t forget. I’m sure that, like me, you also had nightmares. I haven’t had another nightmare since I met Roland. You must learn to focus on the present. If you don’t, you will soon go insane. I raised two amazing boys that I know for certain will take care of you. They will love you without question. Give yourself a chance to be with them. Be with them. You will see what I mean,” Elena explained.

I pondered what she said while fixing the boy’s dishes.

“You’re right,” I told her, and she was. All this time, I’ve been afraid to give myself fully to my friends because of Liam and what he has done to me. My twins have been so patient with me. Never step out of line.

“I will try,” I told them.

I was bringing the plates up to the twins when Bonnie and Elle caught me.

“Hey, I know we haven’t gotten a chance to spend time together, but I’m glad I have a sister now. I was wondering if you wanted to go to the mall today with us,” Elle said.

“Yeah, while we are there, we can discuss some stuff that you may not be comfortable telling our parents,” Bonnie said.

“That sounds wonderful,” I told them, and they smiled brightly.

“Meet us right here in an hour,” Bonnie told me. I nodded and carried the plates upstairs. The boys were still asleep when I went into the room, so I put the plates on the table and went back down to get some juice. Once I came back upstairs, they were both awake with the plates on their trays, eating.

“Good morning,” I told them with a smile. I kissed them both.

“Good morning,” they said together.

“Someone’s cheerful,” Aiden grins, stuffing French toast in his mouth.

Cheerful fun,” Ethan said.

I crawled to the edge of the bed and sat down, watching them.

“Well, lucky for me, you both gave me something to be cheery about,” I said in a seductive voice. I sat up on my knees and crawled slowly towards them. They both stopped eating and stared at me as I held them in my trance. I was so aware of the control I held over them both. I trailed each of my hands, starting at their necks and stopping at their chests. They didn’t move. I swear, I don’t even think they were breathing. I took a bite of Ethan’s French toast and took a sip of Aiden’s juice. I chuckled and kissed both of their heads before moving from the bed. Maybe I should listen to Elena. They were still under my spell, as I had gotten off the bed and headed to my wardrobe.Upstodatee from Novel(D)ra/m/a.O(r)g

“Fuck!” I heard one of them say, and I smirked. This was way too easy. I decided on a black knee-length dress that had long sleeves. It hugged my body beautifully and showed my curves a little. I paired it with some closed-toe black flats. I can walk in heels, but I’d rather be comfortable today. I got dressed and applied a bit of eyeliner. I am pretty happy to be going to the mall. It’s the first time I’ve gone out since I’ve been here. Going out with girls my age for the first time. I decided to play with the boys more. I walked outside and stood in front of the mirror over the dresser. I tossed my hair back.

I looked behind me and watched them undress me with their eyes. Aiden cleared his throat.

“You look beautiful, mi amor; where are you going?” he asked.

“Selena and Elle invited me to the mall; is that okay?’ I asked them.

“N, it’s too dangerous,”‘Ethan” answered. Just blunt. It was strange because they usually give me the option to choose what I want. This was something I wanted to do, and I wasn’t taking no for an answer.

“Please,” I asked them. “I want to go for a little while; I’ll be safe, I promise.” I plead with them, hoping to change their minds.

“No,” they said together. I was getting upset, but I didn’t give in.

“Fine,” I simply said, and I pulled my dress seductively over my head. I was wearing a lacy black bra with matching pants. I wore black individual leg stockings that rose to my upper thigh. The lace from them matched my set. Their eyes were trailing me as I turned back to them. I ran my hands through my hair with a little sigh that sounded like a moan. “Ah well, I was looking forward to going, maybe buying something lacy that I would maybe wear on another day, for certain individuals, but okay then,” I told them, and I grabbed a t-shirt. Just when I was about to put it on…

“Wait,” one of them said.

I turned around, and Ethan was behind me. Their eyes flickered into black.

“You can go,” Ethan said, grabbing me. Aiden walked past us and to the bathroom.

“Just be careful, Mi amor.” Ethan kisses my head before pushing me away a little, checking out my appearance again.

“Yes, daddy,” I told him sweetly. I grabbed his shirt and pulled him into a kiss, surprising him. I found out I loved baiting them. I’m not sure where this came from. I just finally feel like myself. He gripped my waist and pulled me close. I could feel his dick pressing against my thighs. He deepened the kiss, and man, was I ready to submit at once?

“Kayla!” I heard one of the girls shout. I pulled away from Ethan, who was breathing as fast as I was. Aiden was standing by the bathroom door, watching us. I hadn’t known how long he had been standing there. I walked over to him and hugged him. He pulled me in and whispered “tease” before letting me go. I smirked at him and threw my dress back on before meeting the girls at the door.