The Vampire Teacher (GirlxGirl)

Chapter 115: Dirty

"I think you need to go and rest darling." Brenda's mother told me as we walk out of the kitchen.

"I'm fine mom really." I assure her she was so worried about me and I understand her.

"Are you really okay? Brenda aasked me when we reach the stairs smiling at me.

" I'm fine love really I just wish I could stop having this flashes really I just want to have a normal life it's

all. "I said walking up the stairs with LJ's small hand in mine.

" Maybe I can do something."Brenda said next to me as I look at her.

" What?

" Compel you." she told me as I just look at her not knowing how it will help any of my flashes.

"Babe please stop joking around." I told her walking up to chrissy's room.

"I'm serious here Lucia please I can see you like this while I know I can do something let me just

compel you to forget that everything had happened for this week and then I will take it back and then

you can choose what you want but please think about the baby. "she told me as I look at her not

believing that everything is just about the baby.

" Baby, baby so everything will go about this child who I don't want if you care so much about this child

who is not even born yet then I don't know what I will meant for all of you here in this house when she

is born. I don't care about this child and no Brenda just leave me the yell alone! I scream at her and

speed off towards my room leaving them in front of chrissy room and lock myself in the room crying.

You know what I touch my stomach feeling how she kicks me I don't care about you you became a

problem for me I don't want you I don't need you just die okay I scream hitting on my stomach so many

times feeling the pain on my fits on my skin making me growl out as I just wanted to rip this child out of

my stomach and throw her away.

"I hate you I hate you! Scream throwing and destroying everything in my away screaming so hard.

" Lucia open up this door please I heard Brenda's voice calling for me.

"I hate her, I hate her. "I cry.

" Honey no please don't this to yourself. "my mom spoke knocking on the door but I just couldn't I hate

this new life of mine this is not the way I wanted to have this child and I can't stand having her in my

body she is disgusting she is dirt and make feel more and more dirty I can't even kiss Brenda probably

she can't even touch me and then I get those stupid flashes I can't live like this I can't I just wanna die

and never came back. How will I ever make Brenda happy I scream and push my wardrobe away

seeing it fall down broken on the floor hearing yells and screams out side my door.

"I don't wanna live this life." I stop still biting on my nails when I heard Brenda said she is going to

break the door speed out of my room through the window and run I run through the tich trees feeling

the sun on my skin and hearing Brenda call for me to came back and I just know she would follow me

so I transport myself into my old room of the house of me and mother. My room was very dirty and dust

I walk up to my bed seeing the drugs still on my bed the same way I have I have left it. I thought Norma

was here to clean up the room but why haven't she. I just hope she is fine.

I climb on my bed and pick up the small plastic bag with so many white stuff in it making me growl as I

pour some on the back of my hand and snuif it through my noise sightimg as the calmness took me

over. I throw myself back on the bed waiting for it to sink in but it was just no enough as I pour a little

more on my hand and snuif again making me laugh so hard hearing Brenda's voice in my hate not to

do anything stupid. I suddenly froze when I think about Brenda's words and the way the baby was

kicking me so hard. I felt so guilty about everything I wouldn't see LJ anymore if Brenda found out

about this.

"Oh fuck Lucia what have you done? I asked myself as tears roll down my face feeling very guilty. My

head start to hurt so much as I couldn't understand what's happening to me so many voice were busy

talking in my mind and I just couldn't stop it from talking.

"Shut up just shut up." I scream turning around trying to where all the voice coming from.

Brenda is not going to forgive and will never see my daughter again what have I done I cry rolling

myself into a boll as hold my legs close to my chest thinking about Brenda and LJ. I can't lose them

now but I have already I just could have accepted Brenda to compel me but I just thought about myself

again.

"I'm so stupid, so stupid." I clap myself all in the face with tears rolling down my face. Content provided by NôvelDrama.Org.

"Lucia please tell where are you? I heard Brenda's voice asked me.

" I'm a mess Joan I won't be able to make you happy I'm sorry but I can't I'm dirty and I know you don't

want me I wouldn't be a good mom to LJ just reject me please Brenda . "I told her in the mind link.

" Lucia just tell me where are you okay please I don't care how dirty you are and I'm not going to reject

you let me help you. "she said as she sounds like she was crying.

" No one can help me Brenda .