Chapter 77
That night, I felt a deep sadness wash over me. I was so ashamed of my feelings because they made me feel so freaking **d. How could I even think of loving a man like that when all that he brought me was pain and sufferings?!
Mara was bragging about having collected the tyrant that ruined my life and instead of being happy that she bagged such a dirt bag. I was jealous, why the hell was I jealous of trash?! Why the hell did it make my heart hurt that he was not interested in me. I expected it. He was nothing but a piece of shit, I knew at the back of my mind when we had sex that it was not meant to be. I knew that he was not the kind of man that I needed in my life. He was a two-faced piece of shit that deserved to die and the woman he was with was equal trash that was habitually homicidal and threw tantrums like a fool. They were the perfect match for each other.
I was as glad that they found each other so why was I crying?! I touched my face and felt how wet it was. The tears continued to rush and I could not tell if I was crying because of how hurt I was that Aston would sleep with another woman when I already knew that he would or I was crying because I was so ashamed of myself for getting hurt by someone like that.
I was starting to feel like a trash-magnet. Why did all the men that I felt things for always turn out to be trash? Why did I always all for their s**id deceiving schemes? Why was I always so blind and gullible? Why did I always wait for the bad things to happen before learning my lessons?
1 always acted like my actions had no consequences and they always came back to bite me in the freaking a**
I was such a fool!
I wondered why it hurt so much when I already knew it. Perhaps a part of me hoped that what I heard would be all it was; just rumours. I prayed that even if they were having sex, that was all it could be. I was shamelessly hoping that it would be just the sex and it would end there and it would come back to me. I was so st***d to have thought like that. Just how low was my f***g self esteem to have thought like that. The cell had drained every single amount of pride that I had left in me.
The fact that I was so smitten by his c****k! F**k! I wiped my face but the tears kept pouring and it seemed a little hard to breathe.
The encounter with Mara had proven what I feared – Aston had moved on. I was annoyed that he never bothered to send for me, not even once. It was like I meant nothing to him. Hell, it didn’t just look like I meant nothing to him, I was confident that I meant nothing to him if I did, he would not be able to go so long without seeing or talking to me.
“Ugh, I’m so done with him,” I said to myself, tossing my hair in frustration and jumping on the bed.
I decided then and there that I would move on too. Brax had shown me kindness and love, and I would focus on him now. If Aston could move on with his evil behaviours then I could very well move on too. I could move on to the man that made me feel like I mattered. If I had not him, I would have been so sure that I was cursed with meeting men that would end up life. I was not going to let the goddess run my love life anymore, I trusted her twice and look what she did to me. See where I ended up. The first man she h**d me up with chose a b**h over me and the next man that I had high hopes for decided that sex and unimaginable sufferings was all that I was good for was going to choose Brax and I was going to love him in the way that he deserved that we both deserved to be loved.
We could leave the bad people to feast on each other in their cursed relationship. My wolf clawed at my chest equally as angry about this new development as I was,
The next day, I prepared breakfast for Brax, my heart feeling lighter. I made pancakes, scrambled eggs, and bacon, just the way he liked it. After about a million conversations that we have had, I was able to tell his likes and his dislikes really easily. I liked how open he was too. About everything, his experiences, his childhood. He talked so much, I doubted that there was anything left that he had not told me. I liked that about him. I knew that if I could find a few more things that I liked about him, I was soon going to be able to see him as a romantic partner.
I called him into the dining room, and he sat down and as I turned to leave, he held me back and urged me to join him which I did without any further argument.
“Kira, this looks amazing,” he said, his eyes sparkling with appreciation.
“Thanks, Brax,” I
“I replied, smulling back at him. A man that knew how to be appreciative, what more could I possibly ask for?!
As we ate, he asked me the question I had been hoping to hear so I could move the f***k on from Aston – “Kira, will you officially date me?” his question was simpler and straight to the point but the look of sincerity in his eyes, the nervousness in his eyes, it was the most romantic thing ever.
My heart skipped a beat. “Yes. Brax. I’d love to,” I replied, my simile spreading wide. This was the moment that I was waiting for. I was going to caves to him and my life was going to be so much better before I knew it.
Just then, Mara walked in, a smirk on her face. “Congratulations, you two,” she said, her voice dripping with sarcasm. “I expected Brax’s taste to surge higher after the past, not lower.” The words took a little while before reaching my ears but when they did, instead of anger that I expected to feel, I felt confusion.
I was confused by her words, my brow furrowing in concern. “What do you mean, Mara?” I asked, my voice hesitant and angry!
But Brax just urged me to ignore her. “Don’t mind her, Kira. She’s just jealous” Brax always avoiding confrontation when it came to her, it was gentlemanly but it was also annoying as shit.
But Mara lingered, her eyes fixed on me. “I’m just saying, Kira, you’re not exactly the most… refined choice.”
Brax stood up, his eyes flashing with anger. “That’s enough, Mara. Leave us alone.”
Mara huffed and left, but her words lingered in my mind. What did she mean by “refined choice? I asked Brax, but he just shook his head. “Don’t mind her, Kira. She’s just jealous.”
But I couldn’t shake off the feeling that there was something more to Mara’s words. The feeling that the both of them had a history that I didn’t know about popped up again and I could not ignore it. If I was going to trust a man again, I had to make sure there was not going to be any loose ends.
Later that day, I confronted Brax. “I feel like you and Mara knew each other before, I said, my voice barely above a whisper.
Brax sighed, his eyes avoiding mine. “We did, Kira. But it’s not something I like talking about.” It was the first time he was being avoidant and it made me all the more suspicious.
I pushed him further, my curiosity getting the better of me. “What happened?”
Brax hesitated, then spoke in a low tone. “Mara confessed to liking me once. She even went to great lengths to try and get me to date her. But when it didn’t work, she moved on to Aston, He said it like it was the most normal thing to happen.
My eyes widened in shock. No wonder Mara was so bitter towards me. She had been rejected by Brax and Aston, and now she was taking it out on me. Well, at least she got Aston.
“Why didn’t you tell me this before?” I asked, my voice soft.
Brax shrugged. “I didn’t want to hurt you, Kira. And I didn’t want to talk about Mara’s obsession with me.”NôvelDrama.Org content.
I nodded, understanding. “I get it. Thanks for telling me the truth, Brax.”
Brax smiled, his eyes warm. “Anything for you, Kira.”
His honesty was well received but it was not something that I was forgetting about anytime soon.