Chapter 78
No matter how many times I thought about it over and over again, I could not seem to come to terms with it, I was shocked by Brax’s revelation, my mind reeling with the implications. It was just a lot to wrap my head around, not once did I ever think in that direction, I was not sure that I would ever be able to see Mara the same way ever again..NôvelDrama.Org holds this content.
I pictured her asking Brax out and trying to seduce him then getting turned down. I pictured Brax trying to turn her down as nicely could but being more brutal than he thought because he was utterly clueless. I pictured her getting really mad because she didn’t get Brax to do her bidding when she thought that she could get anything she wanted by flashing her boobs.
I could not help but smile at the fact that Brax turned her down, it made me feel so freaking great, I bagged the man she wanted and she bagged the one I wanted but refused to admit. (Men are really clueless creatures) but, apart from the happiness. I felt something else too. It was a feeling that I was suppressing but it kept rearing it’s ugly head. A feeling that supposed to be forbidden considering all the good things that I had going on for me but I still felt anyway.
I felt a pang of sadness for Aston, realizing that the woman he was with saw him as a second choice. But I pushed the thought aside, reminding myself that it was none of my business. I tried to wipe the smirk that was twitching at the side of my lips too but I could not help it. I was sad for him but I felt so freaking great. The woman he chose me over was not so much after all. Not that it mattered, hell who was I kidding?! It mattered! I was glad!
That night. I received an invitation to Brax’s chambers, he was really giving the relationship his all and I could not ask for any other thing! My heart skipped a beat as I entered the room.
It was set up romantically, candles flickering and flowers blooming everywhere. It was the cutest thing ever, what more could a girl possibly ask for?! He was good looking, he was my night in shining armour and he was actually putting in effort to show hat he loved me
We had dinner together, the most beautiful meal that I had had since I step foot into this cursed place. He had the maids prepare every single thing that I ever told him that I liked and even the ones we had mentioned in conversation and he wanted me to try. I spotted a cake with a red heart on it before he even passed it to my side of the table, it was cringe but it was still the sweetest thing ever, it showed that chivalry was not dead after all.
Our conversation flower easily, it always had. We had more things alike than I thought the fact that he was ever willing to share made him all the more easy to talk to, I didn’t have to probe him to share things with me like I had to do with the last person I was mated to. He always just wanted to hear me speak like he had nothing to say at all and sometimes, it was tiring because a conversation was supposed to go two ways.
“Thank you so much for the food and for making me try your favourite meal too, it was really worth it, I see why you can’t get over it now.” I said after dessert and he chuckled sweetly, using his pinkie to wipe the cake that was on his face but ended up smudging it all over his lips. It was the cutest thing ever. Without two thoughts, I reached out from across the table and wiped the corner of his lips, what I didn’t realize was how close our faces were. He held on to my hand and pulled me closer until I could feel his breath on my face. I could feel my heart racing as he drew closer to me and closed the space between as we began to make out.
But as our lips touched, I couldn’t shake off the thought of Aston. I was kissing Brax but Aston’s touch was the only thing replaying in my mind over and over again.
I hated it, feeling guilty for thinking of someone else while in Brax’s arms. I pulled out of the kiss, my breath ragged.
“Are you alright?” Brax asked, concern etched on his face.
I nodded, feeling a pang of guilt. “Yeah, I’m fine,”
Brax smiled, his eyes crinkling at the comers. “Good. I want to spend the night with you, feel you against me.”
My heart skipped a beat as I try to understand his intentions. “Oh, 1-1 don’t know if that’s a good idea 4 stuttered feeling really disoriented.
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Brax chuckled, his hand stroking my hair gently making me feel a little bit more relaxed. “Not like that, Kira. I just want to hold you feel your Amth. We can just sleep, nothing more.” He clarified and I felt a little shy after that
I hesitated, but Brax’s gentle words put me at ease. “Okay,” I agreed, my voice barely above a whisper.
As we settled in. Brax’s arms wrapping around me, I felt a sense of safety and comfort. But my thoughts strayed to Aston, and I couldn’t help but wonder what he was doing at that moment. Was he cuddling Mara too? Was Mara feeling the warmth of his arms as I was with Brax? Did it feel weird for him with Math the way it did for me with Brax? I rid myself of all those thoughts and tried to focus on just the two of us.
As I drifted off to sleep, I felt a sense of peace wash over me. Brax’s arms were wrapped around me, holding me close, and I felt safe and protected. The soft glow of the candles cast a warm light on the room, and the sweet scent of flowers filled the air. I felt like I was in a dream, a dream that I didn’t want to wake up from. Brax did everything he could to make me feel” comfortable and it was starting to work. I could feel my nerves relaxing and I knew that I could most certainly get used to
this
But even as I slept, my mind was still racing with thoughts of Aston. I dreamed of him, of his piercing eyes and chiselled jawline. I dreamed of the way he made me feel, like I was the only person in the world. I dreamed of his touch, his kisses, his warm embrace. I dreamed of the way he used to hold me, the way he used to look at me
When I woke up. I felt a pang of guilt. I was in Brax’s arms, but my thoughts were still with Aston. I looked up at Brax, who was watching me with a gentle smile. His eyes were soft and caring, and I felt a surge of gratitude towards him.
“Good morning” he said, his voice still groggy from sleep but s** regardless.
“Good morning. I replied, my voice barely above a whisper. I felt a sense of awkwardness about Aston even in Brax’s arms and I didn’t know what to do with the close proximity we were in.
knowing that I had been thinking
Brax stroked my hair, his touch gentle. “Did you sleep well?” he asked.
I nodded, wondering if I should tell him that Aston was all I could see when I closed my eyes. “Yes, thank you. You’re a great sleeping partner, didn’t hear any snores.” I joked and he laughed softly.
“Can’t say the same about you though. You had a lot to say in your sleep.” My eyes widened in shock. Did he know? Did I call out Aston’s name in my sleep?!
Brax smiled, his eyes crinkling at the corners. “Relax, I’m just kidding, you needed to see the look on your face.” He said and I let go of air that I didn’t realize I was holding hostage.
As we lay there, I knew I had to make a decision. I couldn’t keep thinking about Aston, not when I was in a relationship with Brax. I needed to focus on the present, on the man who was holding me in his arms. I needed to forget about Aston and move on.
“Brax,” I said, my voice firm. “I need to talk to you about something”
He looked at me, his eyes curious. “What is it?” he asked looking tensed.
I took a deep breath, my heart pounding in my chest. “I really like the way your room looks!” I blurted and he smiled. It wasn’t what I wanted to say but at least, it wasn’t a lie.